If I should quit by AG Missionary Charles E. Greenaway

I was so minister by this poem...
Do take time to read and ponder it's meaning...

by AG Missionary Charles E. Greenaway

If I should quit, what would the gain be?
Would the battle be lost? Would I really be free?
No, the door would not close, nor the battle cease,
Because God would have another to stand in the breach,
if I quit.

If I should quit, what would I do?
Seek shelter from the heat, forget the cry of the lost?
Would I be happy for a time, then find I was through--
And spend my time praying for something to do,
saying, “God, why did I quit?”

If I should quit, I would find that God had not;
the battle would still rage, the church would march on.
The wind would keep blowing, the Spirit infilling,
Only I would be farther and farther behind, unwilling,
Wondering, “God, why did I quit?”

If I should quit, what could I say to God who called me,
and the people who sent me, and the pagan who trusted me
to show him the way? And the Spirit’s urging day after day?
God, I can’t quit!

If I should quit, let it be when I am dead--
Not while I’m alive, nor when I’m dissatisfied,
nor when I’m criticized, or minimized, or ostracized,
but please, God, let quitting time for me be-
When I am dead!

Nehemiah- His success

I haven't been writing in my blog for a long time... but I visited Evangel family church today and heard a msg by pastor Marion... Was really bless by it... So thought I share it with you... :)

The sermon is on The book of Nehemiah...
His love and commitment to God despite of all obstacles to fulfill his call from God...

7 keys to his success...

1) Our focus on God's call will keep us from compromise, from discouragement
The success of satan's attack always start from compromise of a Christian life
2) To be strong and courageous is not enough, we need strategy
3) Sacrifices and determination is necessary, to see successful results
We need to work while men sleep
4) trouble from the external is unavoidable, it is the internal that we must look after
Eg. Faithless pple with negative remarks
Before u build upwards, u need to firm ur foundation downwards. Prayer is the answer when we get tired.
5) our complete trust in God is displayed by our prayerful life. 
To know successful a man is, is to see how they respond to crisis
6) history has proven God never failed to honor those who have the fear of God
7) admitting our problem is one thing, we need to rise up to do something. 
Don't just sit and criticize, rise up and re-build... Be like Nehemiah, be bold enough to rise up and survey the ruins. Rise up and do something about it. Is our life is ruin? Rise up and do something about it.
Prov 28:13

Gone with the wind...

Hey... super super stresses out with my school and work and church...
I've never had it so hard...

My work is really piling up and the economy is really not making anything easier... People are tense... taking more risk and on my side, there are more procedures and jobs to do... Give me a break... i'm literally working weekends too with my phone ringing... why does technology have to be so high tec? I even have to go to my company acct from home to work on weekends... this is so not what i sign up for... I hate my job... urghhhhh.... arghhhh... i wanna scream...

My school is crazy... it's assignments after assignments... i just completed my run of 4 TMAs in 12 days... now, i've to do another 3 more TMA in less than 2 weeks again... i haven't even had time to settle down and study anything yet... it's just assignments after each other... urghhhh.... and it's so tough... i don't even have time to think... i'm staying back during lunch to do them... I don't think i've ever worked my brains so hard... And after work, i still have to rush to school to attend class... after i come back, i'm already so so tired... but i need to spend time to do my assignments and talk to my parents too... i don't have time... huh....

Weekends are filled with camp stuff and RR... i really am feeling very very strain... To put on a mask every day... huh... i feel like taking it off and just show the ugly side of me... I hate myself so much now...

And weekends are my only time with Ber... i don't meet him at all during weekdays... because of his school... and mine as well... Even when we talk during weekdays, it's just 2-3 mins cause we're both either studying or at least for me... trying to shut off my minds for awhile and not have to feel and think about anything... to just sit in front of a box for maybe 30 mins before i sleep... exhaustion...To balance time for him when i need some for my own... it's... huh... i'm starting to wonder if i'm maybe better off alone... at least i won't be such a lousy and unsupportive gf... full of mood swings and emotionally driven... Ber needs someone who can stand by him... to help him and show a good example for the youth to follow... i used to think i can... but i feel myself drifting further and further... i can't seem to catch up with him anymore... He really souldn't have to worry about me... and not spending enough time with me... but i find myself always giving him problems and troubles... maybe it's not meant to be... maybe we're not trying hard enough... maybe i'm just to tired to think and feel anymore... Is it selfish of me? To be thinking for myself? to want some time for me? to want freedom and love? to want to feel fulfillment and achieve my dreams? to not want pple to tell me what i can and cannot do? Can i not lead my own life? I have lost my sense and direction... i can not see my future...

why can't i handle it better... why can't i be better... Ber says i knew what i was getting into when i sign up for my studies... i guess i did... so do i deserve it... where is the understanding? i guess i can't blame him... blame me blame me... just kill me...

Not going to update anymore... at least not till i've finish my semster... flooded with work...

Keane - Somewhere only we know

This song completely describes how i am feeling now...
simple faith... i need simple faith...

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You

Rainbow connection - Jason Mraz cover

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.


Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.


All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic...


... Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
... Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

James morrison & Jason Mraz

I bought 2 CD yesterday... James morrison and Jason Mraz... :)
I think they are great... every single song in their CD, was written by them... :)
Wow... :) their music is very guitar base and very unique... :)
Love it... :)